Dec 30, 2003
*__xanga
Posted at 03:36 pm by heartmui_
Dec 29, 2003
*__f0r [n0rman]
since [y0u] left m0i
i cant find anything g0od inside me
i th0ught [we] haf dat str0ng c0mpani0nship
but [y0u] ch0se t0 let g0 0f 0ur relati0nship
i break d0wn w0ndering if i can ever pick myself up
i guess i cant, i was sh0 messed up
i`m cutting myself t0 see h0w much it bleeds
i guess it sure hurts al0t
lyk h0w [y0u] haf hurt me
but it hurts me m0re t0 see [y0u] wif an0ther pers0n
i cant blame n00ne but myself
f0r wad i`ve d0ne, i hate myself
if i c0uld ever ch0ose
i`ll ch0ose t0 stay in the past
in th0se beautiful mem0ries 0f 0urs
0nli there dat i can find myself
and the true l0ve [we] b0th 0nce had
my l0ve f0r [y0u] ish ture
but [y0u] din gimmi a chance t0 pr0ve
n0w dat [y0u`re] g0ne
i`m writing all this..
jus t0 tell [y0u] wad i really feel inside
and h0w deep i`m hurting inside
in my heart..i h0pe dat
[y0u] will 0nce again be mine and dat
[we] will l0ve each 0ther m0re den b4..even after [we] die
if [we] will never be t0gether n0 m0re
i h0pe s0me0ne can give [y0u] s0 much m0re l0ve
i'll be hurt and things lidat
but dun w0rry, i w0nt treat myself bad
n0 matter where i`ll be
i`ll always be there if [y0u] nid me
c0sh in my heart [y0u] haf a place
and i can tell [y0u], its in a special place =)
Posted at 11:47 am by heartmui_
*__misses [him]
tuning t0 : j0lin [ni kuai le mahs] // m0od : sad ='(
tym:6:28pm
arl0wx..as usual n0hx..t0day been slacking ad h0me. sian till canz die man~ ate l0r mee fer breadfast again, as delici0us as b4 =P den cum back watch qian nu y0u hun, very t0uching canzz!! dunch really understand why a l0veing c0uple end up hav t0 suffer in such a tradegic.. haiis den watch till 2:3o g watch wan yu..den leine called and we t0k 0n f0ne l0hz.. till 4:45pm den g0 buy dinner eat den call her again..tok till 5:3o..den g0 read my old blog. mak0t0mui 0ne.. g0t a l0t 0f mem0ries abt me and [him] nehs~ everyday g0t [him] 0ne, n0w den i realised...i really l0ve [him] a l0t.. till n0w, i still lub [him].
16.0ct0ber..ish e day we stead n0hs.. after much waiting, and fu chu.. we bcum a pair.. haiss..dat tym i really gave my heart t0 [him], thinking dat he will l0ok after m0i.. budden..ish n0t l0hz. and we br0ke 0n 27.0ct0ber..haiss.. my heart was t0tally br0ken~ ish n0t [he] tw0-tym me lahs..0r wad jus dat [he] really n0 feelings f0r mi niax.. mayb this kinda thing really cannot f0rce 0ne, mayb [he] ish n0t mine guy bahs..mayb g0d ish g0od t0 me, mayb he plan a betta guy d0wn my path..budden..i am still willing t0 wait f0r him lehs.. h0w?? there ish n0 other guys i l0ve sh0 much lyk h0w i l0ve him..haiiss..zhen de ha0 ai [ni]..i will be right here waiting f0r y0u..
tym:6:37pm
Posted at 11:37 am by heartmui_
Dec 28, 2003
*__slacking
tuning to : daniel chen [wen xia qu,ai xia qu] // mood : fine~
tym now : 10pm
hiee~ slept till 1o:3o t0day..den went t0 eat breadfast wif marmi n she g0 draw b0nus..a l0t w0rz.. hahahz, after dat cum home bian use c0m bian watch huan zhu gege..veh nice nehss~ den use till 2 den gib marmi use..i go watch tv.. channel U g0t l0sta sh0w siax..watch till 6.3o..marmi went ktv den me bath lia0 ish 7. veh l0ng h0r =X den 0n tv watch channel 8 jing ma jiang.. a bit sianz man~ 7.45 tune t0 channel 5..g0t the honey,i blew up the baby veh nice + funny..den watch till 9.3o lorhs.. den ish news den me cum tok to fren in msn nohs.. 10 0n tv again watch the hollow man or duno wad shit show laide.. veh nice n horrible.. ish invisible ppl laide den he go squeeze the hamster to death.. cruel canz!! *sad* then i tink of my dada n xiaoxiao (they ish my hamster..but die liao ="( ) haiss.. i nv zhao gu dem hao lahs.. so sad.. den now i watching the tv lor..wan off com go room watch lers... byebye.. tml den cum update lor..
tym now : 10:10pm
Posted at 03:11 pm by heartmui_
Dec 27, 2003
*__sh0pping *weet*
tuning t0 : s.h.e [he bin g0ng yuan] // m00d : happy =)
e tym n0w :6:5o pm
harl0ws...hmm.w0ke up ad 7:3oam t0 get ready t0 g0 t0 sch meet V.P, luckily mi + marmi was in tym sehx~ keke. den he t0ld mi dat nxt year i can take o level maths + chi sub ask mi if i wanna take up the challenge den i say 0ky l0hz. den he say abt the disadvantage + advantage n0hs. den he looking fer sha0 c0ng aka bird 0s0 mahs. den i call bird n0hs. den *kum wing*[his father laide =X] ans e fone. wakaka den i ad dere am chi0. =PpP the wh0le tingy t0ok abt half an hr n0hs den we t0ok 111 t0 parag0n. c0sh marmi wan g0 c skin care den reach dere 9+ wait fer 0ur turn but n0t yet den the lady tell us t0 take 0ur breadfast first 45mins lata den call us. sh0 we went t0 basement eat deli. *yummy w0rs. was kinda full =P eat lerz g0 metr0 sh0p sh0p, l0ok ad sh0e. den 10.1o lidat e lady call den we went up n0hs. wait fer 30 mins lidat den the d0ctor attend t0 us. i was damn pak chek n0hs. n0e h0w t0 end m0ney veh dua huhz. mus make ppl kip waiting. =X den t0day the cream all th0se + mask c0st $47o nehs!! sh0 ex. *bleah* after dat wen to metro t0 c pants. den c c fer while no hav nice 0ne den walk 0ut 0f parag0n. den 0utside there having chuang ye wu di sh0u mahs. den g0t wang shi yu + shen wei jun + zhang ya0 d0ng. damn shuai canz, e shi yu~ wakaka. i ti0 bi0 him =X den they giving 0ut p0ster den i g0 take 0ne hehex. zhen de hen shuai ha0 bu ha0. *truth* shuai da0~ ... ~ c them fer while den take mrt t0 ti0ng bahru..g0 sp0rts link dere buy sch sh0e. $14.9o 0lY!! damn cheap + damn nice!! =X b0ught lia0z, t0ok a cab t0 near ti0ng bahru the market dere c0sh g0t marmi e peng y0u dere hav 0ne sell cl0thing e sh0p. sh0 m0i guai mahs, pei her l0hz. she ad dere kip try cl0thes n0h den i sit there gib her c0mments. alth0ugh a bit sianz but nvm l0rh. den her peng y0u say 'ur daugther veh guai lehs, u d0wn here try cl0thes den she nv disturb u' den i smile smile =X den wan g0 h0me de shi h0u, 0ne 0f her peng y0u gimmi try cl0thes 0s0 n0hs. den ish burberry de lehs! den i sh0 damn happi. then t0tal b0ught 4 cl0thes + 1 pant. BURBERRY!! *Ho0t* =PpP den t0o many things ler and we to0k a cab h0me. den n0w using c0m l0hz. listening t0 ai da0 di.. *mem0ries* yea?? wakaka. yupz. orh yah can pass my tym watching vcd lers. bbyee~
tuning to : ha lin [ai da0 di] // e tym n0w : 7:o9 pm
Posted at 12:10 pm by heartmui_
Dec 26, 2003
*__christmas
tuning to: cyndi wang [xing fu bei h0u] / m00d: alryte
hiaks. jus n0w actually 0lerdie type ha0 ler den the tingy hang n0hs. make me till sh0 pak chek canz~ den n0w free l0hz sh0 cum type. h0pe everything g0es fine yea? anywae. ytd was xmas nehs. hehez, m0i + marmi attended auntie d0ris' daughter's wedding. we helped 0ut l0hz. i ad dere damn sianz den g0 c joyce + raym0nd de wedding album, lyk sh0 rude lidat call 'em by name.hehex. den j0yce mei*2 w0rz. ji xian mu yi xia nehss!! den everything settle ha0 ler we went in l0hz. sat wif auntie janet l0hz. den tok tok fer while and *tang tang ta tang* e wedding c0uple marched in. veh swit canz~ sh0 l0vely. jeal0us siax! after dat they played a vide0, e pr0cess 9f their l0ve st0ry. frm h0w they n0e each 0ther t0 they g0 steady and n0w MARRY~my eye g0t tears l0hz, c0sh t00 t0uching ler and i bths n0hz. hehex. oh yah n jas0n bcum much m0re shuai ler l0hz. haii cann0t c his gf c0sh g0 0versea w0rk! *hiaks hahax. den i thinking of mi marrying 10 years lata. =X bhb.. if shi wo han [ta] jiu ha0. but i think till dat tym [he] will sure be flirt de =X haiyah, actually 0s0 cann0t say he ish flirt lahs, ish 0ly dat [he] dui w0 n0 feeling niax. n0t [his] fault.hahax. 0k lahx dun say lehs. lata burst int0 tears. den marmi's fren 0ffered t0 send us h0me jiu 0ky l0hz. den cum h0me cleanse my face den g0 0rh 0rh lia0x. hehex.
kana w0ke up by a call frm sch00l. veh pak chek siax. was damn tired canz...den the lady say i did well in maths n chi den nxt year wan me to take o level e maths + chi. den i kinda ti0 sh0cked l0hz.wakaka den meeting V.P tml wif marmi ad 8AM [lolx] siax. hais.. sh0 early~ 0kz lahz. dun feel lyk typing lia0x. byebye.
tttrue love is when you let him gooo
kkknowing you'll never see him againnn
yyyet you've the courage to let gooo
ttto let him find his real happinessss
Posted at 02:15 pm by heartmui_
Dec 24, 2003
*__christmas eve
tuning to: zhang sha0 han [yi shi de mei ha0] / m00d: sian
haiis. ytd kana sc0lding again. damn pissed 0ff wif dat zab0r siax. fuck fuck fuck. pathetic life. blardie shit life. she 0lmost slam my c0m okyx!!! fuck man! i hate her, kip saying wan g0 beijing. G0 lahs. fer the hell i care man! pua cheebye.. dun wan ish dat best siax, den i can g0 back. *fuckup life* nabei. dulan! cried l0tsa. kip thinking y i sh0 sway. i think 10 families inside onli 1 g0t the same pr0b as m0i. den i m the 1/10 SWAY-est ppl.
m0rning wake up was 0s0 dan fucking dulan! den mama call mi mahs. den i lyk veh buey si0ng l0hz. kip asking mi qian nu y0u hun finish ler n0tx. den i veh dulans and say. the pers0n wan it back huh! wif a veh bad attitute l0hz. knns xmas eve i hav t0 lidat. den ask mi wan g0 there not. i say dun wan lahs, cosh dat pua cb t0day w0rk half day. haii. wan me back den make mi g0 back here can a n0t? life here ish damn fark up. veh cb...
haiis. everything n0t 0n da right track canz!! dun fell lyk typing lia0z. bb... *hiaks*
Posted at 03:24 am by heartmui_
Dec 23, 2003
*__new web
tuning t0: n'sync [ this i pr0mise y0u ] / m00d: fine
this 2 days n0 g0 0ut sehs! r0t + slack ad h0me l0hz. sian 1/2 siax. den m0i g0 revamp m0i web.0ne day jiu finish lers. g0 c kaes. www.sillgal89.sg.st hmm. listening t0 s0rry seems t0 be the hardest w0rd nehs. thinking 0f the past. [he] intr0 de s0ngs nehs!! m0i lurveee it veh much.hehez. *mem0ries* t0king t0 leine 0n dat f0ne n0w. she telling mi her hse the tv last nite wad wad... den i listening n0h.. t0king abt li wei de sh0w + MG1 & 2. veh funny. nv call kk yets. is lyk n0w we t0k 0s0 n0thing t0 t0k lia0 l0hz. sian man! haiis. g0 first. g0t thing den update l0hz
Posted at 09:51 am by heartmui_
Dec 21, 2003
*__0rchard
tuning t0: vivian hsu [jue ding ai ni] // m0od: tired
harl0ws.din bl0g fer that pass 2 days c0sh n0 tym + went 0ut.sh0 lemmi n0w recall wad happen.sat w0ke up ad 10 plus den went 0ut t0 0rchard.b0ught s0me facial tingy fer jus few bucks c0sh marmi b0ught the shamp00 tingy den g0t disc0unt.quite nice l0hz.den walk t0 heeren fer while, chew 0n the h0td0gs while walking,$1.5o fer 0ne stick. veh delici0us w0rz.after dat walk t0 wisma t0 sh0p sh0p.marmi wans t0 buy new cl0thes fer wedding 0n christmas.den she b0ught 0ne cl0the fer $8o. n0rmal l00king yea? but c0st her such a bomb. =X mi b0ught a bag again l0hz. 50% disc0unt! i cant miss it yea?? haha...den i saw uncle's steven + family. their er jie din g0, 0r else can c her w0rz. saw da jie + di 0ly. den their parent saw us den chat chat fer while.marmi say t0 mi dat. tis week they din g0 cruise. haha, ya l0hz. veh seld0m c them dun g0 0ne lehs. last tym i every week g0 0s0 can c dem play ddr ad arcade 0ne. den eat kfc fer dinner and went bk lia0z. ad h0me use net fer while den t0k wif kk fer WHILE niax and we ended up quarrelling. 0r shd i say buey si0ng wif each 0ther. he started it the l0hs. den i damn fark up wif his attitute den 0ffline lia0z. he msg-ed t0 ap0l0gise den 0kyz lia0z.wahahaz. den last nite veh easy jiu sleep lia0z. c0sh veh c0oling mahs.
t0day w0ke up ad 1o plus. bath blahs~ den g0 0rchard, CK Tangs dere! kana drag g0 0ne. marmi wanna buy necklaces fer the wedding AGAIN. den i kp her say 0ne wedding u wan spend sh0 much m0ney den she say tis tym niax. den i kip nag her l0hz den she in e end b0ught 0ne. $29.9o n0t bad. c0sh is i ch00se 0ne =X hehez. 0kyz lahz. den went t0 far east t0 eat breadfast + lunch?? yea.. damn weird siax. rite after eating l0ng j0hn den we went t0 eat the kaya t0ast bread. but ish veh delici0us l0hz den i ate 2 pieces + drink few sp00n 0f k0pi. den wan take 1o5 de shi h0u saw da ge's gf,Gwenda. i wave t0 her den she cum t0k t0 mi. she say da ge wan cum fetch her lia0x den dey gng t0 buy new c0m! yea~ den mi can use 0s0. =Pp c0nfirm 0ld 0ne put jie rm l0hz. she dat tym tell m0i if k0r buy new c0m.0ld 0ne sure put my rm 0ne.den i luff her. c0sh her rm lyk rubbish bin. den 1o5 cum ler. we g0 h0me lia0x.
n0w use c0m till 6:3o den mus g0 lia0z. c0sh idi0t marmi kip nagging.felt lyk giving her a slap siax. damn fark up..blardie shit..0ky lahz. gtg lers
Posted at 11:15 am by heartmui_
Dec 19, 2003
*__i need [y0u]
m0nths ago..i set [him] free..
i wanted t0 c if [hE] w0uld c0me back..
but since dat m0ment..my life hasnt been on the right track..
[he] haven't returned..[his] back still turned..
i still dream 0ne day..[y0u'll] c0me up by my do0r..
and tell me n0t t0 cry anym0re..
bud [y0u're] n0t here..[y0u're] g0ne..
i still feel [y0u] in my mem0ry..and in the darkness of the nite...[y0u're] all dat i see..
[y0u] neva felt the wae i did..
but i let g0 of the l0ve...i t0t i've dealt and had en0ugh...
and if y0u l0ve s0meting..set it free...
if it d0esnt c0me back..it wasn't meant t0 be..
i t0t [y0u] w0uld c0me back..and be in my arms..t0gether~
but i learned the hard way..dere's n0 such ting as f0reva...
but [y0u] neva l0ved me..[y0u] neva did..y0u neva l0ved me the way i did f0r [y0u]..
s0 when i let g0..i let g0 of it all...
the l0ve isn't g0ne...its still str0ng...but the h0pe is g0ne...
i guess it died..c0z [y0u're] n0t here after all the tears i've cried..
i always l0ved [y0u]..i've neva st0pped...
i always felt the same way..and i wish i c0uld tell that t0 [y0u] one day..
i neva gave up on [y0u]...
but i dun wish i can change tym..bc0z i paid f0r [y0ur] happiness by giving up mine...
hais...if [y0u] still l0ve me..please return..c0z i've always been dreaming of [us]..t0gether in a beautiful l0ve st0ry...
¨.+// Mîñd¥ [[wø·mén·dè·åï·qíñg·gû·shî]] Nðrmäñ \\+ .¨'
Posted at 11:27 am by heartmui_
